still kisses with saliva.

she had slept enough, eaten plenty. but something still didnt seem like enough. when it snowed today, she couldnt tell if it was flurries or pollen, so she squinted so it wouldnt get in her eyes. it was as if someone had accidently leaned up against some cosmic switch and flipped everything into fast forward so that even with all the good, she didn't get to enjoy it. he told her how happy he was, and that he was just trying to enjoy it as much as possible, before its all over. and she wondered about the last time she felt that things were more than "o.k." it was then that she realized that it hadnt been that way in a very long time. it wasnt that she wanted the sunshine back, but that she wanted it to come at all.